The Shadow Consumes
Mut - December 5, 2005
The Path of the Shadow is a dangerous one; I knew this, but I
still chose to walk that path. I now know that the Path of the
Shadow is like a drug. I use it and become powerful, but the more
I use it, the more dependant I become. This is not how I see
myself, yet it is how I have become.
That which I have drawn power from has taken hold of me.
I've tried ignoring it. I've tried to ignore it's draw. When I
ignore it, I feel week and unsatisfied. And no matter how hard I
try I can never can stop from feeling the touch- nay, the hold
the Shadow has on me.
I feel too weak to go on without the Shadow, and at the same time
I feel that to continue down the Path of the Shadow, would be to
let the Shadow consume me, and suffocate me. I will turn away
from The Shadow, ever so slightly, so that I am not completly
without it's touch, but far away from it's hold that which
controls me. This will be a small step to removing the Shadow
from my life entierly.
I see my place in life, my place is not in the Path of the
Shadow.