Parchment Bound In Leather by Esmi

[Keeper Of Lore]

There seem to be many pages before this entry, but the words are illegible, in what seems to be a writing unknown, or possibly what might be considered 'new' letters.

06/02/2008
The sun is not up yet.

I am not quite sure what to write here anymore.. Much of what I feel is confused, angry... I followed through the goblin transporter as I was told, after Kethryvaris...

I came out the other side, and while looking the same I am aching for a fight... My veins feel alive, as though they might burst through my skin. She questions my feelings toward her? My loyalty for her? But she turns around to do what it is she wishes I don't... What I did not do. She would have found my claims to be true if she'd have listened..

Oh Kethry, you believe you've changed so much... but you're the same person... flaky, fake, and no more in control of your emotional status than you were at home... In love with one, but sleeping and marrying another... Will this be a repeat?

I feel so very alone here... I am afraid to even speak into my hearthstone... And the conversations I have with others is often delayed and short...

Blood drops seem to have splattered the bottom of the page.

I suppose that the short conversations is just how I should leave this entry.

--Athalia Esmi Sunstrider

[Keeper Of Lore]

06/02/08
The morning after...

I feel dizzy.... the anger has subsided.. but..

but...

Why does that faucet keep dripping? My ...

*The rest of the writing is illegible, trailing on into a long jagged line down the page........*

[Keeper Of Lore]

June 03 2008

I do not feel comfortable here... Too easily irritated, too shy... I am keeping myself from talking into my hearthstone... I fear I might reply in a dramatic and or rude fashion. I do not need to be making enemies in this new place I have found myself...

I. I. I. I... .Well I suppose this is about me so why do I feel so awkward talking of myself so often?

Kethry came with news of the High Inquisitor.. I can honestly say I am not looking forward to this inquisition.. Fear isn't what I call this.. I know this is coming, I know this is going to possibly be painful...