Friends for Tea
Posted: Tue Dec 30, 2014 10:37 pm
I hung the pot by the fire and sat back on my haunches, looking up at the sky. It was getting late, and stars were emerging in the darkening sky above the great gate beside which Fhenrir and I made our home nowadays. In exchange for the residence, we’d taken up the guard post. It was an easy assignment, well beneath either of us, but Fhen had more than the rank to pull it if he wanted to, and he had after he’d decided our previous home in the Barrens was… unsafe.
Cyelaena stood by the fence, looking down the path. The ghostly blue wolf glowed faintly in the dimming evening. She knew that visitors were coming, or at least I thought it seemed like she did. Six years since Cyelaena had appeared, and I still could only guess at the creature’s mind. But she made a loyal companion and I try not to look gift ghost wolves in the mouth.
A flap of netherdrake wings announced Fhenrir’s arrival. I smiled as the tauren dismounted and approached. The firelight made his red eyes glint, but I’d never found him intimidating.
“What do you think this is?” he asked as he paused beside me at the fire. He touched my hair, and I leaned my head into his palm.
“He said it wasn’t about… the other you,” I said.
“Other Fhen seems to be completely missing.” His hand dropped to his side.
“Missing?”
“My scouts stopped reporting in on him, said he was just gone.”
I frowned with concern. While I was conflicted about the appearance of a younger Fhenrir from another timeline, I hadn’t wished him any harm. Even so, his existence was troublesome, as we had little reason to trust his presence here wouldn’t be disastrous somehow, considering those who had brought it about. That he had disappeared didn’t bode well regardless of how I felt.
I was distracted, however, when Cyelaena suddenly trotted off. Rising to my feet to see where she was going, I spied a new figure approaching from the path up to the gate, and Fhenrir turned to see as well. The newcomer knelt down to greet the wolf, who inspected him and then turned to escort him the rest of the way up the path. Fhenrir and I met our guest in the yard.
“Leyu’jin,” Fhenrir hailed him warmly. I smiled, watching as the two exchanged salutes. Leyu’jin was a typically lanky troll with white hair and a fierce intelligence in his gaze. He greeted me as well.
“Joo two be a sight fo’ sore eyes,” he said. “It be gud ta see joo.”
“Good ta see yer still in one piece!” I laughed.
“’Ey, ah try not ta git bits lopped offa me.” He grinned, and turned to Fhenrir, clapping the tauren on his heavily armored shoulder. “Brotha.”
Fhenrir returned the gesture. “Brother,” he said. I noticed that Leyu’jin’s armor appeared wet, like he’d flown here in heavy rain.
Cyelaena didn’t move to inspect the second newcomer when she arrived moments later; Lilliana had already spent a good amount of time in the ghost wolf’s company. I greeted the priestess as she joined us.
“Hey, Lilly,” I said. She and I looked a lot alike, a resemblance that inevitably drew comments when we were together. It wasn’t that surprising considering she was sort of my aunt – but that’s a long story.
“Xara!” Lilly said happily, moving to hug me.
“That’s me,” I laughed, returning the hug. Lilly was damp for some reason as well. As we separated, I caught Lilly sticking her tongue out at Fhenrir. He gave her a look, but nodded in greeting. I chuckled. “Ya guys want a drink?” I offered.
“I do, I’m thirsty. A warm one?” Lilly said.
“I’ve got just the thing,” I said. I went back over to the fire to pull off the pot, and began pouring the steaming liquid into several waiting mugs.
“It’s a bit late, but we’re having tea with you two,” I heard Fhen say.
“Coffee, actually!” I called out.
“Hah. We final-like git around ta it,” Leyu’jin said, sounding almost sheepish.
“Why you saying it like that?” Lilly asked. “They were the ones that were responsible for inviting us here.”
“Well. We do be awful late on da tea ting,” he responded.
Fhen excused himself and walked over to one of the huts. I returned to the group carrying the mugs, and began to pass them out. Leyu’jin thanked me as he accepted his mug, and Lilly was pathetically grateful as she took hers. “Oh Xaraphyne, thank you...” she said. She cupped it in both hands and held it close to her face, breathing in the steam.
“Time flies when yer gettin’ invaded,” I said to Leyu’jin. I took out a flask of rum and liberally spiked my own drink, then offered it to the other two. Leyu’jin accepted it, although he only added a thimbleful to his mug. Lilly, not to my surprise, abstained.
“Troo,” Leyu’jin agreed.
I gestured that we could go over to the fire, where Fhenrir had gone to arrange some skewers and haunches to cook and another pot to brew, and the three of us moved into the circle of light and warmth to join him. Cyelaena remained by the gate, glowing softly.
“Ah, warmth! Dryness!” Lilly said. She flopped down carelessly, but not so carelessly than she spilled any of the coffee. We settled in as Fhenrir busied himself with the cooking arrangements.
“How’re the Grim doin’?” I inquired after a moment.
Leyu’jin finished a big gulp of the coffee, then made a face, presumably at the inquiry and not the drink. Lilliana looked at him as though expecting him to answer.
“Gud, leastways as far as da war on da Iron Horde, an’ da Alliance go,” Leyu’jin said.
“What else does the Grim care about?” I asked in amusement.
“We havna’ bin able ta make inroads on Ashran yet, as Fhen well knows. Dat place still a disastah case.”
“It was looking better earlier tonight,” Fhenrir said. He settled down next to me as the food cooked.
“That won’t last, Fhenrir,” Lilliana said.
The two males nodded in agreement. I didn’t say anything, having yet to have visited Ashran. In fact, in the new Draenor I’d only visited Fhenrir’s garrison in Frostfire Ridge. I wasn’t in a hurry to explore and adventure again. Most of my outer armor and my weapons were stacked up in one of the huts as we spoke, gathering dust. It was a notable contrast to the three around me, but no one said anything about it that night. I leaned up against Fhenrir, and, finding his pauldron in the way, poked it until he got the hint and pulled off both pauldrons.
“Got a gud crop o’ recruits, tho,” Leyu’jin was saying. “Dey bin real keen on bringin’ da fight ta da pinkskins. As da new Irredeemable in charge o’ Alliance operations, ah gotta sey ah approve.”
Lilly was smiling at him proudly. I said, “Ya got a promotion, eh? Congrats!”
Leyu’jin shrugged self-consciously and said, “Fanyare had ta step down, an’ ah be qualified ta succeed ’im. Der not be much to it beyond dat.”
Fhen leaned forward to check the skewers. Finding that they were done, he began getting the food ready to serve. Noting that Fhenrir had taken off his outer armor, Leyu’jin removed his weapon, setting it to his side. Lilly followed suit, putting her staff behind her.
It was a serene, picturesque moment as Fhen served us the meal and we set to, sitting around the fire, chatting companionably in the safe and beautiful countryside. It was easy to forget the chaos that was going on in this world, and whatever other worlds – at least, easy for me to. I looked up at Fhenrir as he handed Lilliana her skewers, and kept my thoughts to myself.
“’Ey, dis be purty gud! Joo know ’ow ta cook, mon,” Leyu’jin said to Fhenrir.
“There are some perks to taking care of yourself for awhile,” Fhenrir responded, sitting back down.
“’Ey, ma cookin’ not too bad. Ah try ta make sho’ ah feed ma’self well too.”
“Heh, yer so skinny, Ley, ya better make sure ta eat!” I said, grinning.
“He always looks like that,” Fhen said. Leyu’jin raised an eyebrow, but didn’t disagree, just helping himself one of the haunches to begin munching on. Lilliana wordlessly handed him one of her skewers, and he took that with his other hand and started eating it too. I laughed.
With most of us done with the coffee, Fhenrir poured us the tea from the pot he’d had brewing. The night was growing cooler, so it was welcome. Leyu’jin and Lilliana appeared to have mostly dried out with the heat from the fire.
“So,” Leyu’jin said then.
The mood changed. I felt it, although I just looked at him over the haunch I was gnawing on. Lilliana turned toward Fhenrir and me, her back very straight, perhaps slightly more so than usual. Fhenrir looked at Leyu’jin intently, and Leyu’jin hastily swallowed the mouthful of clefthoof around which he’d spoken. Our friend’s features, formerly calm and happy, grew more serious.
“Lilly an’ ah came ta talk wit’ joo two aboot sumting. Ah’m not sho if joo evah knew, but... we hav da name o’ da individual who... delivered dat nasty lil ‘gift’ when joo two left da Grim.”
“Oh, that,” I said immediately, dismissively waving the haunch, but beside me I felt Fhen tense and heard the indrawn breath. Lilly looked at me, then him, and Leyu’jin looked at Fhenrir too, sympathetic and maybe not a little ashamed. Heedless, I went on. “It’s past and gone. I don’t care unless they plan ta make any more deliveries.”
“No, ah donna tink der will be any mo’ deliveries,” Leyu’jin said. “But bot’ o’ us wuz talkin’, an’ we canna abide ba da way our comrades treated joo, our friends. Dat wuz completely-like outta line.”
Lilliana nodded. “Hmmmmm. I don’t think it’s as ‘past and gone’ as you say,” she said to me.
I didn’t like the sound of that. “What do ya mean? Someone in the Grim still mad at us?”
I really hoped not. I’d accompanied Grim on a number of occasions since Fhen’s and my departure from their ranks, and it had seemed like after their little point had been made, everything was going to be fine. I didn’t really care what they thought of me, but it was another matter entirely if someone was still nursing a grudge.
Beside me, Fhen was silent. Not because he didn’t want to share his opinion, but because the other three of us already knew full well what his opinion was. Also probably because he knew if he opened his mouth, nothing he said would be productive.
“No, not like that,” Lilly said. She looked at Leyu’jin.
“Well, I appreciate the apology, even though it wasn’t yer fault,” I said.
Leyu’jin nodded at me. “It mighta not bin ma fault direct-like, but da Grim’s actions be as gud as ma actions, an’ ma actions as da Grim’s. When dey do sumting ta stain da honah o’ da Horde, not ta even mention ma friends, sumting mus’ be dun aboot it.”
I frowned. “What’re ya plannin’ on doin’?”
“We plannin’ on bringin’ joo an’ da lil’ bastahd togethah, so...” He glanced at Lilliana. “...so we kin discuss dis all calm-like, an’ hav ’im offah a propah apology.” He grinned, a little evilly. “Mebbe a lil’ grovelin’ in da dirt, ah donna know.”
I stared at him. It seemed like such a bad idea to me that I couldn’t even understand why he’d had it. Fhen and I had tried to put the whole thing behind us; the last thing either of us wanted to do was dredge it all up again. Leyu’jin had to be joking. I looked at Fhen for an explanation.
Fhen was giving Ley a long, hard look of his own. Then he shook his head. “You might be better leaving me out of whatever it is you have planned,” he said.
The look Leyu’jin received next was a threatening one from Lilliana, the priestess apparently displeased his choice of words had gotten the reaction they did. “No grovelin’ in the dirt, there are other ways,” she said. Then she grinned. “But it certainly would feel good to imagine that happening.”
I shook my head, reaching out and laying my hand on Lilly’s arm. “Lilly, do ya really picture me enjoyin’ havin’ someone grovelin’ at my feet?”
She smiled at me. “Not at all... but there is more to addressing this issue than you and Fhenrir feeling put back into place or that any type of justice has been served.”
“Well, if ya wanna straighten out some of yer guildmates... like Fhen said, ya can leave us out of it. We’re done with the Grim,” I said.
“And if you throw the thing that did that at my hooves, I will step on it,” Fhenrir said flatly.
Lilly reached over to pat my hand with her own. “Not just that,” she said to me. “This is about the tensions between you and the Grim, I think more about.”
“There’s no tensions, girly,” I said. I raised my hand, waving it. “Things didn’t work out. I’m not mad. Fhen’s not m... well, he’s mad about everything anyway.” Fhen gave me a look, which turned into a smirk.
“Xara and Fhenrir,” Lilly said, trying to sound stern, “you two, you’ll never be done with the Grim. As long as you know me, and Leyu’jin, and as long as you fight for the Horde. You won’t be. Fhenrir is mad.” She looked at Leyu’jin, who had been silent for a time. “Leyu’jin is mad.”
Ley raised an eyebrow again. “Ah wuz originally plannin’ on havin’ da bastahd ovah sum’ere nice an’ quiet, an’ gettin’ Lilly ta put sum shackles on ’im. Den let Fhen ’av ’is way wit ’im.”
That was pretty much the exact scenario that I envisioned being the most unhelpful at keeping things done and over with. I looked between him and Fhenrir, who had a pointed expression, and tried not to heave an exasperated sigh. Lilly, meanwhile, was coughing on her drink in reaction to the description. I thumped her on the back a few times to help.
“And that’s why I’m telling you to leave me out of it, unless you want this person killed,” Fhenrir was saying.
“Well. Ah wuz gonna kill da bastahd ma’self. But dat jus’ ain’t justice, be dat so?” Leyu’jin said.
I couldn’t help it; I muttered, “Since when does the Grim care about justice? Ain’t that Sanctuary’s thing?”
“And if this person apologized,” Lilly was saying in between coughs, “for what transpired?”
“You can’t just apologize for dumping a load of civilian corpses on someone’s lawn,” Fhenrir said. I was reminded that I love him.
“You can apologize for what you meant through the act,” Lilly argued. “And you can choose to accept it, or deny it.”
Leyu’jin looked like he might have said something else, but chose not to. He gazed at Lilliana, thoughtful.
“Apologies are nice and all, but Fhen and I don’t need one,” I said. “It’s nice to hear that you two, our friends, regret that it happened. But those that did it?” I shook my head. “It’s not worth trying to force something like that out of someone, especially when it’s not going to help anyone here.”
Fhenrir looked at me, and I could tell he agreed. Leyu’jin rested his head against his hand as he sipped his tea. Lilliana looked amongst all of us.
“What do you two want?” she asked. “If the world was a perfect place... between you and the Grim... and the one that played that trick?”
“I have what I want,” I said. I waved my hand again to indicate our comfortable, safe surroundings, and named it. “Peace.” I didn’t fail to note the irony that that was supposed to be what the Grim wanted, as well.
“And you can’t give me what I want,” Fhen grunted.
“Fhenrir, don’t be a nitwit,” Lilly scolded. “I’m talking hypothetically, if all were perfect, what would it be?”
Fhen glared daggers at her. He despised being talked down to as much as Lilly hated being dismissed. I was probably going to have to start refereeing between the two soon. “Respect,” Fhen said. “And no corpses on my damn lawn.” After a moment, he added, “Your question is stupid because there is no perfect world. I have no other answer for you.”
I cleared my throat and patted him, but couldn’t prevent Lilliana from speaking. “Shut up, it’s so not stupid,” she said. “It gets you thinking about what it is you truly want. So there.”
“Behave, you two,” I said.
Luckily Leyu’jin spoke up then. “Mmm. Den mey ah say sumting?”
“What is it, Ley?” I asked.
“Buuuuuuuuut...” Lilly interjected, with a viciously playful grin. She stopped, but Leyu’jin nonetheless made a show of checking with her to make sure she wasn’t going to say anything else before he could continue. It amused me to see how well he knew her. Fhenrir had to smile too, the tension dissipating, and then Lilliana waved her hand in the air as though granting permission to continue. Leyu’jin snorted with laughter and I giggled.
Cyelaena stood by the fence, looking down the path. The ghostly blue wolf glowed faintly in the dimming evening. She knew that visitors were coming, or at least I thought it seemed like she did. Six years since Cyelaena had appeared, and I still could only guess at the creature’s mind. But she made a loyal companion and I try not to look gift ghost wolves in the mouth.
A flap of netherdrake wings announced Fhenrir’s arrival. I smiled as the tauren dismounted and approached. The firelight made his red eyes glint, but I’d never found him intimidating.
“What do you think this is?” he asked as he paused beside me at the fire. He touched my hair, and I leaned my head into his palm.
“He said it wasn’t about… the other you,” I said.
“Other Fhen seems to be completely missing.” His hand dropped to his side.
“Missing?”
“My scouts stopped reporting in on him, said he was just gone.”
I frowned with concern. While I was conflicted about the appearance of a younger Fhenrir from another timeline, I hadn’t wished him any harm. Even so, his existence was troublesome, as we had little reason to trust his presence here wouldn’t be disastrous somehow, considering those who had brought it about. That he had disappeared didn’t bode well regardless of how I felt.
I was distracted, however, when Cyelaena suddenly trotted off. Rising to my feet to see where she was going, I spied a new figure approaching from the path up to the gate, and Fhenrir turned to see as well. The newcomer knelt down to greet the wolf, who inspected him and then turned to escort him the rest of the way up the path. Fhenrir and I met our guest in the yard.
“Leyu’jin,” Fhenrir hailed him warmly. I smiled, watching as the two exchanged salutes. Leyu’jin was a typically lanky troll with white hair and a fierce intelligence in his gaze. He greeted me as well.
“Joo two be a sight fo’ sore eyes,” he said. “It be gud ta see joo.”
“Good ta see yer still in one piece!” I laughed.
“’Ey, ah try not ta git bits lopped offa me.” He grinned, and turned to Fhenrir, clapping the tauren on his heavily armored shoulder. “Brotha.”
Fhenrir returned the gesture. “Brother,” he said. I noticed that Leyu’jin’s armor appeared wet, like he’d flown here in heavy rain.
Cyelaena didn’t move to inspect the second newcomer when she arrived moments later; Lilliana had already spent a good amount of time in the ghost wolf’s company. I greeted the priestess as she joined us.
“Hey, Lilly,” I said. She and I looked a lot alike, a resemblance that inevitably drew comments when we were together. It wasn’t that surprising considering she was sort of my aunt – but that’s a long story.
“Xara!” Lilly said happily, moving to hug me.
“That’s me,” I laughed, returning the hug. Lilly was damp for some reason as well. As we separated, I caught Lilly sticking her tongue out at Fhenrir. He gave her a look, but nodded in greeting. I chuckled. “Ya guys want a drink?” I offered.
“I do, I’m thirsty. A warm one?” Lilly said.
“I’ve got just the thing,” I said. I went back over to the fire to pull off the pot, and began pouring the steaming liquid into several waiting mugs.
“It’s a bit late, but we’re having tea with you two,” I heard Fhen say.
“Coffee, actually!” I called out.
“Hah. We final-like git around ta it,” Leyu’jin said, sounding almost sheepish.
“Why you saying it like that?” Lilly asked. “They were the ones that were responsible for inviting us here.”
“Well. We do be awful late on da tea ting,” he responded.
Fhen excused himself and walked over to one of the huts. I returned to the group carrying the mugs, and began to pass them out. Leyu’jin thanked me as he accepted his mug, and Lilly was pathetically grateful as she took hers. “Oh Xaraphyne, thank you...” she said. She cupped it in both hands and held it close to her face, breathing in the steam.
“Time flies when yer gettin’ invaded,” I said to Leyu’jin. I took out a flask of rum and liberally spiked my own drink, then offered it to the other two. Leyu’jin accepted it, although he only added a thimbleful to his mug. Lilly, not to my surprise, abstained.
“Troo,” Leyu’jin agreed.
I gestured that we could go over to the fire, where Fhenrir had gone to arrange some skewers and haunches to cook and another pot to brew, and the three of us moved into the circle of light and warmth to join him. Cyelaena remained by the gate, glowing softly.
“Ah, warmth! Dryness!” Lilly said. She flopped down carelessly, but not so carelessly than she spilled any of the coffee. We settled in as Fhenrir busied himself with the cooking arrangements.
“How’re the Grim doin’?” I inquired after a moment.
Leyu’jin finished a big gulp of the coffee, then made a face, presumably at the inquiry and not the drink. Lilliana looked at him as though expecting him to answer.
“Gud, leastways as far as da war on da Iron Horde, an’ da Alliance go,” Leyu’jin said.
“What else does the Grim care about?” I asked in amusement.
“We havna’ bin able ta make inroads on Ashran yet, as Fhen well knows. Dat place still a disastah case.”
“It was looking better earlier tonight,” Fhenrir said. He settled down next to me as the food cooked.
“That won’t last, Fhenrir,” Lilliana said.
The two males nodded in agreement. I didn’t say anything, having yet to have visited Ashran. In fact, in the new Draenor I’d only visited Fhenrir’s garrison in Frostfire Ridge. I wasn’t in a hurry to explore and adventure again. Most of my outer armor and my weapons were stacked up in one of the huts as we spoke, gathering dust. It was a notable contrast to the three around me, but no one said anything about it that night. I leaned up against Fhenrir, and, finding his pauldron in the way, poked it until he got the hint and pulled off both pauldrons.
“Got a gud crop o’ recruits, tho,” Leyu’jin was saying. “Dey bin real keen on bringin’ da fight ta da pinkskins. As da new Irredeemable in charge o’ Alliance operations, ah gotta sey ah approve.”
Lilly was smiling at him proudly. I said, “Ya got a promotion, eh? Congrats!”
Leyu’jin shrugged self-consciously and said, “Fanyare had ta step down, an’ ah be qualified ta succeed ’im. Der not be much to it beyond dat.”
Fhen leaned forward to check the skewers. Finding that they were done, he began getting the food ready to serve. Noting that Fhenrir had taken off his outer armor, Leyu’jin removed his weapon, setting it to his side. Lilly followed suit, putting her staff behind her.
It was a serene, picturesque moment as Fhen served us the meal and we set to, sitting around the fire, chatting companionably in the safe and beautiful countryside. It was easy to forget the chaos that was going on in this world, and whatever other worlds – at least, easy for me to. I looked up at Fhenrir as he handed Lilliana her skewers, and kept my thoughts to myself.
“’Ey, dis be purty gud! Joo know ’ow ta cook, mon,” Leyu’jin said to Fhenrir.
“There are some perks to taking care of yourself for awhile,” Fhenrir responded, sitting back down.
“’Ey, ma cookin’ not too bad. Ah try ta make sho’ ah feed ma’self well too.”
“Heh, yer so skinny, Ley, ya better make sure ta eat!” I said, grinning.
“He always looks like that,” Fhen said. Leyu’jin raised an eyebrow, but didn’t disagree, just helping himself one of the haunches to begin munching on. Lilliana wordlessly handed him one of her skewers, and he took that with his other hand and started eating it too. I laughed.
With most of us done with the coffee, Fhenrir poured us the tea from the pot he’d had brewing. The night was growing cooler, so it was welcome. Leyu’jin and Lilliana appeared to have mostly dried out with the heat from the fire.
“So,” Leyu’jin said then.
The mood changed. I felt it, although I just looked at him over the haunch I was gnawing on. Lilliana turned toward Fhenrir and me, her back very straight, perhaps slightly more so than usual. Fhenrir looked at Leyu’jin intently, and Leyu’jin hastily swallowed the mouthful of clefthoof around which he’d spoken. Our friend’s features, formerly calm and happy, grew more serious.
“Lilly an’ ah came ta talk wit’ joo two aboot sumting. Ah’m not sho if joo evah knew, but... we hav da name o’ da individual who... delivered dat nasty lil ‘gift’ when joo two left da Grim.”
“Oh, that,” I said immediately, dismissively waving the haunch, but beside me I felt Fhen tense and heard the indrawn breath. Lilly looked at me, then him, and Leyu’jin looked at Fhenrir too, sympathetic and maybe not a little ashamed. Heedless, I went on. “It’s past and gone. I don’t care unless they plan ta make any more deliveries.”
“No, ah donna tink der will be any mo’ deliveries,” Leyu’jin said. “But bot’ o’ us wuz talkin’, an’ we canna abide ba da way our comrades treated joo, our friends. Dat wuz completely-like outta line.”
Lilliana nodded. “Hmmmmm. I don’t think it’s as ‘past and gone’ as you say,” she said to me.
I didn’t like the sound of that. “What do ya mean? Someone in the Grim still mad at us?”
I really hoped not. I’d accompanied Grim on a number of occasions since Fhen’s and my departure from their ranks, and it had seemed like after their little point had been made, everything was going to be fine. I didn’t really care what they thought of me, but it was another matter entirely if someone was still nursing a grudge.
Beside me, Fhen was silent. Not because he didn’t want to share his opinion, but because the other three of us already knew full well what his opinion was. Also probably because he knew if he opened his mouth, nothing he said would be productive.
“No, not like that,” Lilly said. She looked at Leyu’jin.
“Well, I appreciate the apology, even though it wasn’t yer fault,” I said.
Leyu’jin nodded at me. “It mighta not bin ma fault direct-like, but da Grim’s actions be as gud as ma actions, an’ ma actions as da Grim’s. When dey do sumting ta stain da honah o’ da Horde, not ta even mention ma friends, sumting mus’ be dun aboot it.”
I frowned. “What’re ya plannin’ on doin’?”
“We plannin’ on bringin’ joo an’ da lil’ bastahd togethah, so...” He glanced at Lilliana. “...so we kin discuss dis all calm-like, an’ hav ’im offah a propah apology.” He grinned, a little evilly. “Mebbe a lil’ grovelin’ in da dirt, ah donna know.”
I stared at him. It seemed like such a bad idea to me that I couldn’t even understand why he’d had it. Fhen and I had tried to put the whole thing behind us; the last thing either of us wanted to do was dredge it all up again. Leyu’jin had to be joking. I looked at Fhen for an explanation.
Fhen was giving Ley a long, hard look of his own. Then he shook his head. “You might be better leaving me out of whatever it is you have planned,” he said.
The look Leyu’jin received next was a threatening one from Lilliana, the priestess apparently displeased his choice of words had gotten the reaction they did. “No grovelin’ in the dirt, there are other ways,” she said. Then she grinned. “But it certainly would feel good to imagine that happening.”
I shook my head, reaching out and laying my hand on Lilly’s arm. “Lilly, do ya really picture me enjoyin’ havin’ someone grovelin’ at my feet?”
She smiled at me. “Not at all... but there is more to addressing this issue than you and Fhenrir feeling put back into place or that any type of justice has been served.”
“Well, if ya wanna straighten out some of yer guildmates... like Fhen said, ya can leave us out of it. We’re done with the Grim,” I said.
“And if you throw the thing that did that at my hooves, I will step on it,” Fhenrir said flatly.
Lilly reached over to pat my hand with her own. “Not just that,” she said to me. “This is about the tensions between you and the Grim, I think more about.”
“There’s no tensions, girly,” I said. I raised my hand, waving it. “Things didn’t work out. I’m not mad. Fhen’s not m... well, he’s mad about everything anyway.” Fhen gave me a look, which turned into a smirk.
“Xara and Fhenrir,” Lilly said, trying to sound stern, “you two, you’ll never be done with the Grim. As long as you know me, and Leyu’jin, and as long as you fight for the Horde. You won’t be. Fhenrir is mad.” She looked at Leyu’jin, who had been silent for a time. “Leyu’jin is mad.”
Ley raised an eyebrow again. “Ah wuz originally plannin’ on havin’ da bastahd ovah sum’ere nice an’ quiet, an’ gettin’ Lilly ta put sum shackles on ’im. Den let Fhen ’av ’is way wit ’im.”
That was pretty much the exact scenario that I envisioned being the most unhelpful at keeping things done and over with. I looked between him and Fhenrir, who had a pointed expression, and tried not to heave an exasperated sigh. Lilly, meanwhile, was coughing on her drink in reaction to the description. I thumped her on the back a few times to help.
“And that’s why I’m telling you to leave me out of it, unless you want this person killed,” Fhenrir was saying.
“Well. Ah wuz gonna kill da bastahd ma’self. But dat jus’ ain’t justice, be dat so?” Leyu’jin said.
I couldn’t help it; I muttered, “Since when does the Grim care about justice? Ain’t that Sanctuary’s thing?”
“And if this person apologized,” Lilly was saying in between coughs, “for what transpired?”
“You can’t just apologize for dumping a load of civilian corpses on someone’s lawn,” Fhenrir said. I was reminded that I love him.
“You can apologize for what you meant through the act,” Lilly argued. “And you can choose to accept it, or deny it.”
Leyu’jin looked like he might have said something else, but chose not to. He gazed at Lilliana, thoughtful.
“Apologies are nice and all, but Fhen and I don’t need one,” I said. “It’s nice to hear that you two, our friends, regret that it happened. But those that did it?” I shook my head. “It’s not worth trying to force something like that out of someone, especially when it’s not going to help anyone here.”
Fhenrir looked at me, and I could tell he agreed. Leyu’jin rested his head against his hand as he sipped his tea. Lilliana looked amongst all of us.
“What do you two want?” she asked. “If the world was a perfect place... between you and the Grim... and the one that played that trick?”
“I have what I want,” I said. I waved my hand again to indicate our comfortable, safe surroundings, and named it. “Peace.” I didn’t fail to note the irony that that was supposed to be what the Grim wanted, as well.
“And you can’t give me what I want,” Fhen grunted.
“Fhenrir, don’t be a nitwit,” Lilly scolded. “I’m talking hypothetically, if all were perfect, what would it be?”
Fhen glared daggers at her. He despised being talked down to as much as Lilly hated being dismissed. I was probably going to have to start refereeing between the two soon. “Respect,” Fhen said. “And no corpses on my damn lawn.” After a moment, he added, “Your question is stupid because there is no perfect world. I have no other answer for you.”
I cleared my throat and patted him, but couldn’t prevent Lilliana from speaking. “Shut up, it’s so not stupid,” she said. “It gets you thinking about what it is you truly want. So there.”
“Behave, you two,” I said.
Luckily Leyu’jin spoke up then. “Mmm. Den mey ah say sumting?”
“What is it, Ley?” I asked.
“Buuuuuuuuut...” Lilly interjected, with a viciously playful grin. She stopped, but Leyu’jin nonetheless made a show of checking with her to make sure she wasn’t going to say anything else before he could continue. It amused me to see how well he knew her. Fhenrir had to smile too, the tension dissipating, and then Lilliana waved her hand in the air as though granting permission to continue. Leyu’jin snorted with laughter and I giggled.