Blueprints and Schematics (Shaelie's Journal)
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I have a new job, I think. And it's one that means a lot to me.
At the guild meeting last night, Khorvis announced a couple of new titles. Valindria is now the Mistress of Coin, and will be taken ownership of the guilds finances and war vault. She'll see that items are fully stocked or liquidated through the auction house as needed, to fund the repair bills and upkeep costs.
The other title perked my interest. Keeper of Lore. Someone to archive the history of The Grim. Past, present and future. I was immediately interested when he brought it up, but I was afraid to volunteer at first. I figured someone who has been around much longer than me would have more right to such a title. But when no one spoke up, I finally did.
I don't think I was officially promoted yet, but I went to work immediately after the meeting. I've poked around in the library a few times before, but haven't yet dug that deeply into the tomes and journals. I was amazed at how much is there. Written accounts of old enemies, past alliances. Reports of battles fought so many years ago, the pages are covered in so much dust you could hardly see the words. Journals, too. Old reminders of former Grim who have fallen in battle, moved on or become lost. Or driven away.
It's a task I'm honored to take on. If only I could have done this years ago...
It was nearly too late. By some coincidence, Khorvis brought this up only last night. But when I began to pull the books from the shelves, I've noticed many pages are already frayed along the edges and holes burrowed through the spines where bookworms have began their feast on the memories. Thank Gods this was discovered before all was lost.
I immediately started the work of pulling all the books from the shelves, blowing away the dust, fanning through the pages to rid them of mites. And now I begin the long process of documenting everything from the beginning of The Grim until now. Some pages will have to be transcribed, the ink is too faded or the pages too badly damaged by time or the elements to clearly make out the words. Some have no listed author, or I have to read through them more carefully to figure out who wrote them. But it's important. And it's something I'm glad to do.
At the guild meeting last night, Khorvis announced a couple of new titles. Valindria is now the Mistress of Coin, and will be taken ownership of the guilds finances and war vault. She'll see that items are fully stocked or liquidated through the auction house as needed, to fund the repair bills and upkeep costs.
The other title perked my interest. Keeper of Lore. Someone to archive the history of The Grim. Past, present and future. I was immediately interested when he brought it up, but I was afraid to volunteer at first. I figured someone who has been around much longer than me would have more right to such a title. But when no one spoke up, I finally did.
I don't think I was officially promoted yet, but I went to work immediately after the meeting. I've poked around in the library a few times before, but haven't yet dug that deeply into the tomes and journals. I was amazed at how much is there. Written accounts of old enemies, past alliances. Reports of battles fought so many years ago, the pages are covered in so much dust you could hardly see the words. Journals, too. Old reminders of former Grim who have fallen in battle, moved on or become lost. Or driven away.
It's a task I'm honored to take on. If only I could have done this years ago...
It was nearly too late. By some coincidence, Khorvis brought this up only last night. But when I began to pull the books from the shelves, I've noticed many pages are already frayed along the edges and holes burrowed through the spines where bookworms have began their feast on the memories. Thank Gods this was discovered before all was lost.
I immediately started the work of pulling all the books from the shelves, blowing away the dust, fanning through the pages to rid them of mites. And now I begin the long process of documenting everything from the beginning of The Grim until now. Some pages will have to be transcribed, the ink is too faded or the pages too badly damaged by time or the elements to clearly make out the words. Some have no listed author, or I have to read through them more carefully to figure out who wrote them. But it's important. And it's something I'm glad to do.
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((Aww yeah, archivist Shaelie.))
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Khorvis has lost his mind. I am livid. This is even worse than when the warlocks possessed him.
He sent Syreena and Tesonii on a suicide mission. And nearly sent Filora and I on one, as well. All so he could send a larger group to attack Northwatch Hold.
First, he ordered an Alliance captured so we could gather information on Eternal Aegis and Jade Lion. I have no idea why those two guilds are more significant than any other, but that was what he wanted. So we've had a prisoner in captivity and got the names of the two leaders.
Khorvis sent out a demand for them to lay down their weapons on Bladefist Bay and surrender. A rational mind would say that it would be at that time that The Grim would strike, and slaughter the Alliance foolish enough to show up.
Instead- he sent Syreena and Tesonii to the docks alone and without backup to face the Alliance forces and trick them into thinking Tesonii was our prisoner. To what end?? WHY? It was a suicide mission and nothing more! What was the point, otherwise? To cause a distraction so we could attack faceless, meaningless soldiers at Northwatch Hold? We could do that anytime! He wanted information on these two guilds, and they delivered themselves right to our doorstep and he let not only them get away- but he let them take Tesonii!
Meanwhile, Filora and I were sent to move the real prisoner to a different location. He did send two 'escorts' to back us up. Outsiders. One of which HATES us and the other was a complete stranger. They were completely unreliable. We were ambushed and defeated, and nearly lost our prisoner in the process.
One Grim was lost, and three were put into unnecessary danger. And yet, Khorvis claims this night as a 'victory' because Northwatch Hold was attacked. A win for the Mandate?
WE DO NOT SACRIFICE GRIM TO THE MANDATE.
He sent Syreena and Tesonii on a suicide mission. And nearly sent Filora and I on one, as well. All so he could send a larger group to attack Northwatch Hold.
First, he ordered an Alliance captured so we could gather information on Eternal Aegis and Jade Lion. I have no idea why those two guilds are more significant than any other, but that was what he wanted. So we've had a prisoner in captivity and got the names of the two leaders.
Khorvis sent out a demand for them to lay down their weapons on Bladefist Bay and surrender. A rational mind would say that it would be at that time that The Grim would strike, and slaughter the Alliance foolish enough to show up.
Instead- he sent Syreena and Tesonii to the docks alone and without backup to face the Alliance forces and trick them into thinking Tesonii was our prisoner. To what end?? WHY? It was a suicide mission and nothing more! What was the point, otherwise? To cause a distraction so we could attack faceless, meaningless soldiers at Northwatch Hold? We could do that anytime! He wanted information on these two guilds, and they delivered themselves right to our doorstep and he let not only them get away- but he let them take Tesonii!
Meanwhile, Filora and I were sent to move the real prisoner to a different location. He did send two 'escorts' to back us up. Outsiders. One of which HATES us and the other was a complete stranger. They were completely unreliable. We were ambushed and defeated, and nearly lost our prisoner in the process.
One Grim was lost, and three were put into unnecessary danger. And yet, Khorvis claims this night as a 'victory' because Northwatch Hold was attacked. A win for the Mandate?
WE DO NOT SACRIFICE GRIM TO THE MANDATE.
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Syreena is still captured. She snuck her way into Eternal Aegis's base and ended up trading places with Tesonii. Tesonii is free now, but Syreena is still in there.
We had a plan to rescue her.. but she sent a message through Lilliana. She's fine, and we should wait.
I trust Syreena. I believe she knows what she's doing. She's smart, and I believe in her. So we are waiting, but it's uncomfortable.
I was transcribing more of our history again. I've gone through stacks and stack of books. I barely have time to focus on the stories right now, I'm too busy restoring the actual pages, or copying what needs to be re-written. But this one quote from Syreena hit me like a brick tonight. It was when Warneshi was in trouble, and a bunch of Grims were trying to help him.
The rest of us? We are the backbone of the Mandate. We are Grim.
Syreena is Grim.
We had a plan to rescue her.. but she sent a message through Lilliana. She's fine, and we should wait.
I trust Syreena. I believe she knows what she's doing. She's smart, and I believe in her. So we are waiting, but it's uncomfortable.
I was transcribing more of our history again. I've gone through stacks and stack of books. I barely have time to focus on the stories right now, I'm too busy restoring the actual pages, or copying what needs to be re-written. But this one quote from Syreena hit me like a brick tonight. It was when Warneshi was in trouble, and a bunch of Grims were trying to help him.
I hope that some people like Khorvis and Awatu don't ever lose sight of who WE are. The Mandate would never survive without the people behind it who are willing to carry out what is necessary for our survival, as Awatu said last night. Not everyone has what it takes. Supplicants come and go. Some fail. Some die in battle. Some don't have the heart. They're too soft, or too afraid, or too desperate to cling to the false belief that Horde and Alliance can ever co-exist."Warneshi is trapped. We have to bring him back. He is a Grim, and our friend. He needs our help." -Syreena
The rest of us? We are the backbone of the Mandate. We are Grim.
Syreena is Grim.
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I'm so conflicted, and I don't know who to turn to for an answer. Clearly, holding friendships outside of The Grim is a nearly impossible thing, since there are few I can trust and even fewer that I like. Something about Saelyx struck a different chord with me, even from the first time that I met him in Booty Bay. My instinct is that I like him. Once upon a time, in my more distant past, I sense that we would have been good friends.
I heard tonight that he has dealings with the Alliance. My first reaction was disappointment. The same kind of disappointment that I felt when Cobrak turned on us. But then I was reminded- he is not Horde. Nor is he Alliance. He's beyond both factions- one of a dragonflight.
So what does that make him? Traitor? No.
But can a Grim be friends with a person of a faction outside of the Horde and Alliance conflict? Lilliana doesn't mind him- but Lilliana is friendly with everyone. So I turned more to Syreena, who tends to view outsiders like I do. She didn't seem to have a problem with him- and even suggested he should come back to another meeting. I tried to ask her about that, but she was leaving. But she did say to me, 'Haven't you ever talked to the dragons of Wyrmrest Temple?' My answer to that was no, but she left before I could ask her more about what that means.
I'm tempted to ask Khorvis what he thinks. It wouldn't be the first time I've turned to Khorvis for advice.
I heard tonight that he has dealings with the Alliance. My first reaction was disappointment. The same kind of disappointment that I felt when Cobrak turned on us. But then I was reminded- he is not Horde. Nor is he Alliance. He's beyond both factions- one of a dragonflight.
So what does that make him? Traitor? No.
But can a Grim be friends with a person of a faction outside of the Horde and Alliance conflict? Lilliana doesn't mind him- but Lilliana is friendly with everyone. So I turned more to Syreena, who tends to view outsiders like I do. She didn't seem to have a problem with him- and even suggested he should come back to another meeting. I tried to ask her about that, but she was leaving. But she did say to me, 'Haven't you ever talked to the dragons of Wyrmrest Temple?' My answer to that was no, but she left before I could ask her more about what that means.
I'm tempted to ask Khorvis what he thinks. It wouldn't be the first time I've turned to Khorvis for advice.
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I'm not sure which is more disturbing. The fact that I've been entered in a bachelorette auction, or that Awatu found out and wrote to me about it.
Am I in trouble? Who the hell signed me up for that, anyway? I guess I'm supposed to talk to Paiyuna... not sure why. I wonder if I can back out of this thing. Not a chance anyone would bid on me, anyway.
I can't believe the Commander had to write to me about this. How embarrassing..
Am I in trouble? Who the hell signed me up for that, anyway? I guess I'm supposed to talk to Paiyuna... not sure why. I wonder if I can back out of this thing. Not a chance anyone would bid on me, anyway.
I can't believe the Commander had to write to me about this. How embarrassing..
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I had my interview with Paiyuna tonight. Surprisingly, I got along with her pretty well. For an Outsider.
I've been thinking a lot about that, lately. That distrust or even hatred I have towards the outsiders. Deep down, I know that it isn't good for me to hang on to that much anger, and allow it to consume my actions. But every single day is a battle. I start it with the same intentions: Don't allow that anger to take over. Don't get into so many fights. Don't waste so much energy hating everyone so much. It gets in the way of life. It isn't who I used to be. And yeah, I know the person I used to be is dead. But this isn't getting me anywhere. I spend so much time allowing those negative thoughts and emotions to dictate every thought and action, there's no time left for just living. Or doing anything fun, or things that make me happy. Or god forbid, having friends.
Anyway. Paiyuna. We both got involved in that big fight the other night, but today we were completely fine with each other. I like that.
Shokkra showed up, and I was annoyed- and she was, too. But we didn't fight. Sure, there was a lot of tension, but I didn't hit one of those black outs where I see red and there's no turning back from violence. I left, becaue the interview was basically done and I didn't want to be around her. But I left that tavern feeling just a little bit proud of myself that I kept it together.
Then I saw Kex'ti, and ended right back at square one. He, in particular, is my biggest trigger, I think. I was ready to take a swing, but he got called away to battle.
Two steps forward, one step back. It's a start.
I've been thinking a lot about that, lately. That distrust or even hatred I have towards the outsiders. Deep down, I know that it isn't good for me to hang on to that much anger, and allow it to consume my actions. But every single day is a battle. I start it with the same intentions: Don't allow that anger to take over. Don't get into so many fights. Don't waste so much energy hating everyone so much. It gets in the way of life. It isn't who I used to be. And yeah, I know the person I used to be is dead. But this isn't getting me anywhere. I spend so much time allowing those negative thoughts and emotions to dictate every thought and action, there's no time left for just living. Or doing anything fun, or things that make me happy. Or god forbid, having friends.
Anyway. Paiyuna. We both got involved in that big fight the other night, but today we were completely fine with each other. I like that.
Shokkra showed up, and I was annoyed- and she was, too. But we didn't fight. Sure, there was a lot of tension, but I didn't hit one of those black outs where I see red and there's no turning back from violence. I left, becaue the interview was basically done and I didn't want to be around her. But I left that tavern feeling just a little bit proud of myself that I kept it together.
Then I saw Kex'ti, and ended right back at square one. He, in particular, is my biggest trigger, I think. I was ready to take a swing, but he got called away to battle.
Two steps forward, one step back. It's a start.
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Last night was horrible. I went to Cantina- it was on a beach this time. I actually had fun through most of it- and I was doing really good, too. I was proud of myself. I even got along ok with Shokkra. And Inzema was there- it was nice.
Kex'ti showed up later and I was still doing ok, kind of joking around with people and making conversation, goofing around with Inzema, stuff like that. Kex'ti sat right next to me and started making a voodoo doll, then burned it. I asked him about it and he said it was some kind of tradition. (I still think it was a voodoo doll, though.)
Anyway, things were going pretty good for most of the night, until I heard Kex'ti talking about information he got from the Alliance about something. Oh no- I remember what happened. Leyu'jin started to tell him about our attack on those warehouses in Stranglethorn a week or so ago. He mentioned we were fighting the Alliance, and Kex'ti started to get mad. So I made some comment about his Alliance buddies.
I guess that was the final straw for him, because he drew his staff and came over to me and caused this huge scene. He made me stand up and was trying to get me to fight with him. Everyone gathered around us and he started calling me out, calling me a coward and going on and on. I made some comment about him not fighting against the Alliance but Leyu'jin backed him and said he does fight the Alliance- I guess because he heals for The Grim in the battlefield.
He was calling me a Non-Combatant and a coward. I tried to say that I do fight the Alliance- I fought in Stranglethorn and I always march with them on the Capital cities. I fight with them pretty much everywhere but the battlefields.
No Grim would speak for me, though. They all just stood there and watched. I didn't didn't let it show on the outside, but I was humiliated. And hurt. I felt really alone, in that moment.
Kex'ti showed up later and I was still doing ok, kind of joking around with people and making conversation, goofing around with Inzema, stuff like that. Kex'ti sat right next to me and started making a voodoo doll, then burned it. I asked him about it and he said it was some kind of tradition. (I still think it was a voodoo doll, though.)
Anyway, things were going pretty good for most of the night, until I heard Kex'ti talking about information he got from the Alliance about something. Oh no- I remember what happened. Leyu'jin started to tell him about our attack on those warehouses in Stranglethorn a week or so ago. He mentioned we were fighting the Alliance, and Kex'ti started to get mad. So I made some comment about his Alliance buddies.
I guess that was the final straw for him, because he drew his staff and came over to me and caused this huge scene. He made me stand up and was trying to get me to fight with him. Everyone gathered around us and he started calling me out, calling me a coward and going on and on. I made some comment about him not fighting against the Alliance but Leyu'jin backed him and said he does fight the Alliance- I guess because he heals for The Grim in the battlefield.
He was calling me a Non-Combatant and a coward. I tried to say that I do fight the Alliance- I fought in Stranglethorn and I always march with them on the Capital cities. I fight with them pretty much everywhere but the battlefields.
No Grim would speak for me, though. They all just stood there and watched. I didn't didn't let it show on the outside, but I was humiliated. And hurt. I felt really alone, in that moment.
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(( that shit's cold, yo. Grim and the mandate before sanctuary punks. ))
Grisbault, Twice-Made.
The p, s, l, and t are silent, the screams are not.
The p, s, l, and t are silent, the screams are not.
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[[ Sorry Shaelie. That must have happened after my computer's battery died for the night. Khorvis got your back! ]]
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(Heh, it was when Khorvis was off talking with Theira and Naring. Because in the middle of the whole confrontation with Kex'ti, Khorvis yelled something like "Rutilus fights with The Grim!", so the timing of it stung extra! ;D )
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((Lilly would have backed you up!))
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Not gonna lie. I'm nervous about tonight. I know I'm going to stand up there with no bids, which will kind of suck. But whatever.. I wonder who even signed me up, to begin with. Probably Lilliana.. or Syreena.